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Jul. 14th, 2006 | 12:44 pm
mood: sadWistful and confused
music: Wild Cherry - Play That Funky Music White Boy

I only went away for a couple of days. A break of sorts. But, it's amazing how the thing you think you hate, is actually the thing you miss most when it's gone. I really missed the boarding house when I was away. I don't know why. I think it was because I missed my friends.

I realised something while I was away though. What the fuck am I gonna do when I leave school? What career choice am I going to take? Where am I going to live? Who am I going to live with?

All I know is that I want to make music. I want to listen to music, dance to music, eat to music, have fucking sex to music!

It's something I need to work on.

*He sits down, slipping his shoes off, slacking his tie and unbuttoning his shirt.*

I need a hair cut, *He ruffles his blondey-brown locks.*

I miss Nicholas. I haven't spoken to him in what feels like so long. I think I made a mistake kissing Michael. He doesn't love me. It's a fantasy. I probably don't love him. Well, as a friend, of course. I think my heart, has and probably will remain with Nick. Although I know it's not a mutual feeling. I can live with that.

I spoke to my mum on the phone the other day. She said she was happy to hear my voice and said she'd missed me. Nothing from dad. Stupid bastard. I told her my exams had been going well so far. She was pleased.

Anyway. I think I might go for a run later on. I feel... Sluggish and lazy. Maybe the fresh air and excercise will do me good.

Oh, *sighs,* Nick... I miss talking to you. You always make me feel better.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:09 am (UTC)
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*continues to cry on your shoulder, speaking between sniffles* If you happen to find that perfect bloke for me give 'im my number, yeah?

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:10 am (UTC)
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*Smiles,* I'd give you Nick's number but he doesn't have a phone.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:17 am (UTC)
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Aw, *sniffs a little, releasing you from his grip* Nicky loves Alex, not me. I actually tried to be with Nick, once. It didn't work.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:18 am (UTC)
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Nick is so complicated. He loves Alex, but also Michael. Michael loves Nick so it's mutual. I love Nick but he doesn't love me so it's pointles... It's so confusing...

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
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*smiles weakly* Nick is confusing. Always has been and always will be, likely.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:20 am (UTC)
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*Smirks,* Yeah, most likely.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:22 am (UTC)
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*idly scratches the back of his head, mussing his hair* I hope he feels better soon.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:24 am (UTC)
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Yeah, *Mimicks Paul's actions,* Me too.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:27 am (UTC)
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Ah, here's the place I was talking about. *opens the door for you this time* Hungry?

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:28 am (UTC)
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*Rubs his stomach under his shirt with his cold hands and glances at the menu,* Slightly.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:34 am (UTC)
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*grins* Me too. *flops into a booth sideways, legs sprawled out*

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:36 am (UTC)
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*Sits down opposite to Paul and pulls his legs up so he is sitting cross-legged.* What's it to be?

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:39 am (UTC)
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*sticks a finger in his mouth as he ponders the menu written in chalk on the wall* I think I'll have toasted cheese and chips, and maybe a chocolate milkshake...yeah.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:40 am (UTC)
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I'll have a cheese omlette and a water, thank you. *Hands the menu to the waiter and grins at him.*

Soo. *Tries to make idle chatter.*

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:42 am (UTC)
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Soooo. *smiles* Water, eh? So healthy.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:43 am (UTC)
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*Laughs, and plays with the salt, tracing the figure 8 within the mess he's made,* Yeah... Always healthy, me.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:47 am (UTC)
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You certainly look much healthier than me. Maybe in Greece I'll pick up a little colour. I think muscles are a lost cause, though.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:50 am (UTC)
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*Shrugs,* Muscles are always obtainable. Mine didn't just happen to fall on my arms... *Laughs.*

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:54 am (UTC)
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Aw, shite, there go my hopes. *grins* Afraid I never was one for exercise, I prefer to read or play music. I guess my arms are a little toned from drumming but, eh. They're still sticks.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 01:55 am (UTC)
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Yeah, drumming helps a little bit, I suppose. *Sighs and yawns, rubbing his eyes.*

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 02:00 am (UTC)
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*smiles* Sorry, am I keeping you up?

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 02:01 am (UTC)
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No, *Smiles,* I'm sorry. It's be a hectic last few days.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 02:02 am (UTC)
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Oh, I understand. I've not been getting much sleep myself.

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from: shookhiships
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 02:13 am (UTC)
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No, I don't think anyone has.

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from: paul_r_thomson
date: Aug. 1st, 2006 02:17 am (UTC)
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It's a stressful time of year. But next year is what I'm more worried about...*brightens as food is brought to the table*

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